Young hearts full of art and worry You don't need to hurry--but you must continue Do not let the message within you fall on deaf ears Keep your hands moving 'till the truth appears You will not be forgotten Even if you grow rotten through, you still have a truth to speak to And those who need you to be proof That they too can still move and make something new Young hearts full of art and worry You don't need to hurry--but you must continue Do not let the message within you fall on deaf ears Keep your hands moving 'till the truth appears This is only the start Of something which never ends or gets less hard Yet every part will be worth it in moments When you look back and see how much you've grown into who you are And the memories blot each page Demarcations of the ways you've aged Not all of which you wanted to see But without each of which you could not be And even as your heart breaks Taking tallies of all of the mistakes You can say, at the very least You weren't afraid to try and make something Young hearts full of art and worry You don't need to hurry--but you must continue Do not let the message within you fall on deaf ears Keep your hands moving 'till the truth appears Embrace the fears and scream them If the tears are fake, then make me believe them If the pain is real, inflict it on me So I can see the world for what it should be If you can't believe in yourself, then believe in me Who believes in you, until the day that you can too And if you need proof that someone needs you Flood the world with your words 'till the signal cuts back through And never stop or you will never know 'Cause you cannot grow if you throw in the towel and go home You must hammer it down to the bone "This is what I am, and I will be known!" Young hearts full of art and worry You don't need to hurry--but you must continue Do not let the message within you fall on deaf ears Keep your hands moving 'till the truth appears

What can I tell you bout the future? Gonna have my boot up in your face when you abuse her Gonna have me wishin I was dead if I wake up and feel the dread Of realizing I threw it away a user Tell me what you fear I can tell you what to avoid What you hold dear That shit will keep you paranoid And yes it's worth it ...maybe Life just goin' crazy Just maybe Control is overrated, but you gotta learn to fake it for the future By what indication do you sense the predication Of human annihilation? I think you need education I think we all as a nation gotta take a step back Take a deep breath-- reassess what we got left And do our best not to waste breath On incessent stress and defensive steps Get a grip-- get a stiff upper lip and start talkin' Figure out where we all walkin' Ain't no seperate paths when we're all caulked into the mass DEAR FUTURE, I DON'T WANNA LOSE YA TELL ME WHAT I GOTTA DO TO MAKE SURE ALL THE HUES ARE STILL BEAUTIFUL BY THE TIME I GET THERE STILL THE ME THAT I WANNA BE EVEN WHEN I'M GRAY-HAIRED No I do not like the pain But I'mma stay in the game That's just the way I was raised Any less, I'd be ashamed What got me really afraid? Knowing you think of my name Only as someone who walked-- Took off, dried up, and went lame I couldn't face you the same I'd never look up again I'd be afraid of myself I would go fuckin' insane But if I stay in my lane Still ever gonna be strange Whatever headin' my way I'mma take it to the face Steady be changin' my shape-- But my core intact And you can't teach that You may doubt this truth But my life is fact My mistakes of youth They won't hold me back The propel me to Try to not be whack They compell me to Go and chase these stacks And I base this rap On what I see as Self-affirming thoughts in the face Of a blackened void That I'm quite annoyed Never will see fit to talk back DEAR FUTURE, I DON'T WANNA LOSE YA TELL ME WHAT I GOTTA DO TO MAKE SURE ALL THE HUES ARE STILL BEAUTIFUL BY THE TIME I GET THERE STILL THE ME THAT I WANNA BE EVEN WHEN I'M GRAY-HAIRED

When I consider that I exist on this Earth Subsist with such mirth Blissed out and purposed I feel an insistence To close the distance I've kept from a sense Of responsibility This way that I see Surroundings as utility Knowing full well That I have the ability To see your hell And handle with fragility I could dispell The idea of the enemy Otherness-- The global forgetfulness of onness The AT fields that we choose to shield Our hearts with and weild Our fears as weapons-- Protection from intervention Inventions perpetuating our perceptions That we are seperate in our selection That we our sectioned Our predilection For preservation With complications Of all our nations Communications Falling flat Cause we can't understand that We will always be chewing the same fat We will sustain and maintain that Till the day that we may ascertain fact If there is such a thing in the void's hat If there is sense in the way anything acts And I stand with my doubts still about that Believe you me I can see the trees breathing I am attuned to the kids screaming I understand what you're scheming And I am not even close to disagreeing I am lost-- It doesn't help to understand the cost It's the profit I don't get I don't know where the gold sits I can't predict the market I can't do a cost-benefit When I'm unfit to interpret the latter To grasp at the ladder That leads to the benefactor Supreme actor Wherever you are I don't believe that the answer is just among the stars I don't belive any of us ever make it that far One day everything will end, and then it will all restart I would only like to be here for as long as we are Let me be there when the lights shut off When the space shutters one last cough By then I'll be ready to accept what is not Unless my will is real, and I crush nihil And my soul can really carry on But I won't hold my breath, or barrell headlong for death I will fight the stress that bites at my neck With vain hope the next decade is the test To see who will rest inside nature's breast And the future's nest; what I'm so desperate To attest to giving my best to I cannot rest till I've made my point And felt the joy of all I know is there I'm only scared of having to miss out I'm only scared because I have this doubt I'm only scared that I just might be wrong I'm only scared that I may not be strong I'm only scared that I could die too soon I'm only scared that I will cry right through The final scene, and that I will be moved I just can't deal, I just can't deal Oh God let me be real If the time is soon then I would like to feel

It's time to open my heart once again The pen guides the hand to the margin's end The friends that I've lost have gone up by tens My feverish rush has sped up and extends Way beyond what my heart can keep up with I'm drugged up with so much to be blunt with What I thunk when I spit three years ago I was so much less ego and so much more stable And now it's gone... I know exactly what I did wrong... If I could go back, I'd make the same decisions I've never been the type to stew for long on what I didn't Do with my time, my life's a line It's readable, perceivable, immutable, the flow is natural It started out with the big bang And it's still going strong on to this day Even if I'm alone and I'm prone and afraid Right on the brink, I think, of going insane I can't say it didn't make sense That distance was in my nature to best It crushes down on me now to assess That maybe I was always doing my best And I ain't shit--and now I gotta live with it Watching you walk away as I simply sit And work through the pain with just teeth to grit And buckle down on the script I've so often writ of my dying fits We're moving on the the eighteenth now Yet another sequel to how I skipped town Only now all that burden is just on me This is my thing, my so-called dream, what I've chosen to be c'est-la-vie, I'll see you soon again I hope I pray all you motherfuckers know I think you're dope I hope all you motherfuckers know I love you most Do not ever think I left because I hate you, nope I'm just broken, unfit to fit in, a villain And chillin' just ain't in the bag for a big bad I gotta chase thick chicks and fat stacks Like the scumbag that I am, that's Conrad My big fat heart, it exists to bleed My Ghibli tears, they were meant to stream And I don't need you to love me back Only need you to be sure my love is fact I only know how to do one thing To speak what I feel, hope it's interesting And that you will keep listening Thinking what I do is neat Remembering what I bring Out of you that you would be Lesser to yourself if these Feelings weren't accessible If you had no vessel to Feel the things you wanted to Know yourself in other ways That weren't imaginable See yourself as something more Even if intangible I want to be in your thoughts I want to be in your hearts I fear being left behind I fear being left to rot I am not a perfect friend I am not a perfect God I am gonna let you down I can't promise that I'm not Gonna hurt you very much I could tear your heart to shreds I might leave you bleeding, dead I may just fuck up your head You can do the same to me Long as you don't leave me be Fuck me up and kill me please Take me with you to the sea ...wherever I'll be

I remember back when I was just a kid Struggled to make connections, yet somehow I always did Manage to have one friend, every house I lived in But then we would move away, never hear from them again Every one meant the world to me But I was so used to leaving, I would never think to reach Out to see how they turned out, clear out any doubt That they didn't even stop to think of me now And old habits they be hard to break Even after a decade living in the same place I've been letting others fade away, and I can't say I've done my part to make it happen any other way Even people that I know online Some I start to wonder if they're even still alive I'm twenty-five now, and I've got a lot ahead So to everyone I've ever loved, alive or dead: I miss you Everything is always bound to fade The steady march of time it takes us all away I'm ready to embrace what I know is my fate I promise everyone I won't forget your face I been displaced enough times to know my brain tries To move you to the back of my mind, for the time being And I'd be blind if said I wasn't seeing How moving has become my very mode of thinking I've been in one space long enough to perfect it Been at one pace too long to accept it Now I gotta run towards the evening sun And find fun in new places I never expected If I can't stay with anyone, I'll go to everyone Live out the fleeting greetings and have fun Cherish each and every meeting, but move on Always to the next scene, to sing the next song It may seem wrong to some, but it's how I work Until the day I may change and find a new purpose Define a new compass to follow in life But until then, I'll keep to what I feel is right I hope we meet again before you pass That the memories of times we spent together will last Every fleeting vision trapped in my distant past Is what guides the mast of this ship you passed In the night Put up one light I'll raise one too A toast to you