It's never easy living in a world full of people you ain't forgiven Temptation is to give in, to fit in, but when you know you didn't Do anything wrong, then what is strong? What's the path to fall along? If this is what it's like, then is it worth going on? Seen a lotta family defeated teetering on edge of insanity Wondering, well, could that be me? Never seen success up close Except from my dad I suppose But only after pulled up from a nosedive Several times clotheslined my life with his own pride And that's from a good guy, and I'm the lucky kind But still had a knife to my wrist so many times I desensitized myself to thoughts that I'd die Nowdays things are going fine because I work my ass off Never looking back or fuckin' dealin' with the hassle But if I could have a single wish to ease my mind I'd Ask 'em all to give a bow and tip a hat, apologize (chorus) I didn't get my ass kicked every day By my brain, so I could sit here and wallow in shame While you defame me, I'mma run a crew on your main street And we 'gon level whole street blocks with our dank beats And rebuild America with a singular vision An empathetic place where I'm not ashamed to raise children I'd like to think it's more than a fantasy But I have no reason to place my faith in humanity All my fuckin' life accused of shit that I ain't even do 'Cause lynch the weirdo was the rule among the normie skater tools And all the other punks in school who knew they were complicit I hope your conscious eats at you at least for how you did it And then the so-called critics give me characteristics I never exhibited, and now the story's twisted Yeah I know how to fix it, but shit makes me ballistic They comin' at my money so you know they gettin' fisted Bide your little time, take potshots from behind enemy lines And see how long it takes for me to hunt you down and break your spine And no, won't be no crew of mine you see that's comin' at you Just me kicking your ass backed by a rousing cheer from Pantsu I rap with hopes you'll see my pain without having to feel it Don't worry 'bout the past and all the bullshit, cop the realness Then go ahead and make the fuckin' world a better place By being cool and being you and staying out of my fuckin face (chorus) I didn't get my ass kicked every day By my brain, so I could sit here and wallow in shame While you defame me, I'mma run a crew on your main street And we 'gon level whole street blocks with our dank beats And rebuild America with a singular vision An empathetic place where I'm not ashamed to raise children I'd like to think it's more than a fantasy But I have no reason to place my faith in humanity [Endless Jess] Fuck hope. and fuck having faith in you animals 28 years i been hated like a radical, i had to go underground to be sound and safe and take adderall just to face the day and feel awake You never had a soul, I’m sick of the human race In a basement i been pacing, counting lines on my face debasing myself in the dark to earn a place of my own with all the hearts that i have shown the way that i’ve grown and fallen apart Sick of you rich kids, sick of the privileged sick of being hassled by bitches who never did shit i never had shit, only had it hurled at me over time that’ll make a mind twirl madly Sick of being spat on and dissed like a loser by kids with computers, i never had a future me being here is a miracle and triumph you’ve no right to diss my life until you try some of my footwear, you’d stumble and look where you bumbling fuckwits are stuck, shook in terror you couldn’t beat level 1 of my game you've been on easy your whole life and I’m the one shamed? Sick and tired of living in shit, mired in it like I’m Charlton Heston up on the Planet of The Idiots, Simians, Simpletons, Cretins and Freaks, a madhouse where the strong live in fear of the weak People came to curse my name who ain’t even heard me but i’ll be flying over this perch like I’m a birdie like I’m Randal P Murphy, these faggots all wanna hurt me, fry my brain and have the nurses strap me to a gurney But i will escape, hatching a plan to break out and journey Wide awake, I’m stacking my paper, ain’t even 30 My pain is a hammer you can’t take, you ain’t worthy and my name is a promise you can’t break, made sturdy What the hell you worms even worth to me? There’s nothin worse to me, i know you’ll turn on me and it occurs to me you nerds will murder me in the third degree as soon as it’s convenient in effigy you’re burnin me but i’ll be turnin up, like the burnin bird i’ve learned to be chirpin and burpin and slurpin worms up, and turnin me hotter from the flame in the furnace that is spurrin me on to never fade, that’s why my name is eternity.

Slept too long, eyes crusted shut Missed too much, leanin' on a crutch I thought I'd be stuck, blind, left behind Never figure how to drive, how to keep myself alive Wandered through the forests feeling deader than Euronymous Throwing in my two cents on the forums with anonymous Hated all the pain that came from knowing anybody's name So I blinked off the map and ceased to change I couldn't take it when they cry... Realizing I'd been so naive, been so berieved Over a fictional reality the internet conceived And seeing how I'd been deceived, I deemed the Only way to breathe was to achieve the very thing They'd told me I could never be So I studied all the techniques and then I bleached All the disease away and seized the only pieces That I needed to bring heated messages That reach the vestiges of belief in your breast again To life, it's how I met my wife and now I kinda like it when they cry... Pumped up bux, now my people eat Helping all my freaks try to find some peace I smoke an ounce of weed literally once a week Tryin' to get some relief, from the hell that I perceive When I think of school and how it only taught me otherness Get online and all I find is people trying to smother us Gotta find the ones that I can trust, and help them all out of the muck So we can get this culture fucked I kinda like the way they cry... [Big Dig] Stuffin' this boot so far up a punk ass 'Fore I let the gun blast, shit for brains in the grass Tongue up in your girl's ass, fuck her too Yeah I mighta pumped first but then she sucked my crew Big Dig, I'm not a rapper, I just fuck faces Travel in a space ship, wait for you to say shit My dick is twice the size of your crowd I gotta love the way your fans go down You know I like it when they cry...

When you like 14 Prayin' that love is more than a dream Can't even conceive of yourself as a real human being 'Cause that ain't the way you treated anyways Every single day feels eternally long At your weakest when they most expect you strong All I wanted was to die and go away Can't believe I made it long enough to see these brighter days Now my worry's on a much bigger stage My heart finally saved, but the world don't hesitate And I know what's broken now, I know someone could be saved So I know I have to fight, 'cause I know I have the strength And that I can pave the way, maybe let you out You can help me too, can't do it without The support from my friends and my allies and family Out with the bad vibes, in with the good guys Sadbois gotta stick together Nihilist but don't think you're clever 'Cause yeah, alone, it might get you killed But we form a fiber stronger than steel Raise a blade like the razor blade You used to flay your flesh with and brave The storms of war to follow your purpose Cure the future of how they cursed us Sadbois gotta stick together Nihilist but don't think you're clever 'Cause yeah, alone, it might get you killed But we form a fiber stronger than steel Raise a blade like the razor blade you used to flay your flesh with and brave The storms of war to follow your purpose Cure the future of how they cursed us I know it's hard to go outside To stand around and listen to lies But you know you're gonna get online And into the same shit every time You know you can't live alone--that's the shit you been failing at all along That's what got you to this song Consciously or otherwise, this is a bond Whether it's just the beat that reaches or it's my poems I been writing hard near twenty damn years Tryin'ta own these tears and define these fears So I hope you hear what I'm talkin' 'bout And if it can help you out, you know I'd be proud Never was much a fan of crowds But we've found a distance that works for now And I hope you'll play it close to the chest And find someone else who brings out your best Sadbois gotta stick together Nihilist but don't think you're clever 'Cause yeah, alone, it might get you killed But we form a fiber stronger than steel Raise a blade like the razor blade you used to flay your flesh with and brave The storms of war to follow your purpose Cure the future of how they cursed us Sadbois gotta stick together Nihilist but don't think you're clever 'Cause yeah, alone, it might get you killed But we form a fiber stronger than steel Raise a blade like the razor blade you used to flay your flesh with and brave The storms of war to follow your purpose Cure the future of how they cursed us

SHOT... my love into your heart The pussy where it start It's gettin' pretty hot Girl you ain't no other THOT Fingers 'round your throht I'm chokin' till you cough--then you gon' have my cock Balls deep past your tonsils ...where they used to be You could be on your knees, or the bed if you please Whatever gets you wet girl, keeps you at peace Until my thick cream flowing deep in your larynx I wanna get fucked, I wanna smoke weed I want you to be how I want you to be Get your ponytail pulled back, no release And tickle on your nipple 'til I get your knees weak You have to say please... then you'll get the DICK Shout my name bitch, only if it's perfect That's when I'll unload, deep in your hole Pumpin' all my juices till your whole body full Don't get up With pussy that fire you know I ain't done What's your desire? You've earned your fun Take another round from the smoking gun First I rub your pussy with my tongue Then I get your tits in my fists, and you got my nuts Slammin on your butt, till you physically can't stop the cum, and you shakin' like the kindgdom come DO NOT FUCK WIT DA BIG DIG COMIN' DOWN YO BLOCK WIT DA SAMURAI NIGS FUCKIN' ALL YOUR THOTS WITH DA BIG DICK CALLIN' ALL YO MOMS TO GRAB THEY DEAD KIDS

This one goes out to the few who never fuckin' doubted me Saw what I could do day one and knew they'd soon be proud of me Ghostlightning who scouted me, dad who never frowned on me Mom who was like "you's a star" before nobody crowded me Vic and Shade like every day they stayed nearby to surround me Now I lay with May and gotta say that woman is my queen Even appreciate all the support from her family Outside of the closest both of our worlds are calamities But clan Collins is stronger bonded in our brash insanity And all along the way we bring the friends who wanna stand with me Also all the fans who make it possible for me to eat And keep encouraging my hunger chomping after larger meats They can keep the strategies, SEO and royalties I'll be going for the throat, you each represent my teeth I'm the jaw that clenches down, we tear off a massive piece Bloodspray and it hits the ground, that's the fuckin' industry! Tearin' off the faces all the same of clones who run the game And makin' sure they scream my name before I give a chance to plead Bleed 'em dry for every dime Punk ass dies on his punk weight time Turn the clock back, rewind? Let me remind Every single thing fucking dies! No you can't have my breath, I'm at odds with death Better bring your best, motherfucker I'm stressed Like twenty-four seven, 'cause "enough success" never crossed my melon I get you upset? Sucker, I'm here chillin' Comin' for the chest? I'mma be that villain Shillin' for a plug, sucka pride like Krillin' Hit another nug, get wise, stay vigilent; my bitch heaven-sent Hard to stay mad these days Brush my shoulders off, fuck those flakes Doesn't take much to crush these fakes Gonna have to pump up them stakes Takin' risks every chance I get Payin' off 'cause I know my shit Kids convinced I've gone off the ship Sittin' broke in their parent's cribs Givin' me dough to see my myths Spendin' that money on my bitch Take her out to Bernard's then fuck her real hard, yeah that's really how I live! Watchin' anime that ain't shit Celebrate the greats and the hits Life we dreamed of when we were kids How did we get so good at this? Sorry, I was just born this way Checked the Beckett guide, not 'gon trade You could be your best self today But you just must't run away Take a chance and fall on your face Brush yourself off and then go straight To the top with your favorite name Let them never say who you may Be for them, you are you, fuck hate None of these fucks control your fate You cannot let them desecrate The unique soul that you create Lay them all to waste with your sound Pile their bodies all around As a warning shout to the crowd Snep on snek and I'll blow you down Flood the town until you all drown Fuck the earth 'till that shit ain't round Kill you all I don't fuck around Don't play with me I'm holdin' down the fort like dad Sortin' out my life 'cause no doubt wanna be one like mad Make my kids see reality well it ain't all bad I acknowledge that it's selfish to think you'll be glad Or that I'd be good enough to not fuck up, in fact But if I can make it with world at my back, you can make it too! I'm gonna do my best for you Teach you how to bring forth your best self, too Never let you be what you hate, or do Things you never want to pursue Teach you all that I know, try to lose control Let you be your own, pride in how you grow Never gonna be a day when I fail to say That I love you, no no no You'll be sick of hearing that shit Thinkin' ol' dad, that fart's a spastic That's okay, I'll see you smiling past me At your love and know you've passed into Yet another layer of what is beneath the paydirt Of the soul, and that is greater than the whole of human's nature to be cruel It is love and it's more powerful than you could ever know!