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We on that ragnarok shit
Everyone convinced that the future's a bitch
Ready to flinch at the clap of a hand
Like the sound of the bomb that's erasing the land
The orange man tweets just like Loki
While phony-ass fears play so damn hokey
You gotta be joking -- and maybe you are
The signal got lost when we all tore apart
It's noisey, you have to yell it's so loud
Incoherently overpowering all the of crowds
With gibberish sounds that carry more distance
Messages of ever increasing complete tonal dissonance
And this is why the loudness war rages on
Normalize the track till the nuance is gone
Soak it all in reverb and play like depth is
Just as much sound as you can possibly pack in
Pan it all to the left or right 100%
And never ever ever try to relent
Represent your labels and scream out loud
To drown out the sound of all the bombs comin' down
We on that ragnarok shit
Everyone convinced that the future's a bitch
Ready to flinch at the clap of a hand
Like the sound of the bomb that's erasing the land
The end of the world is an art piece
The trope is the starving, the hopes and the fears are retarding
We're perpartually starting
Reapplying the glue, but it's not quite hardening
And where is the future? We were promised jetpacks once
Mile high cars, they were more than a hunch
Cling as I do to the forty-year hump
To get over, hoping I won't need a lunch to sustain
A brain in a jar, as they say
But I can't see a way through the culture's haze
Malaise in the bones of the young
Hamstrung by the set in their ways other ones
Sound dumb, but it's true; nobody knows what to do
But sit on our asses and hope we get through
I ain't holdin' my breath, though
Till' the fat lady sings, I ain't willin' to let go
We on that ragnarok shit
Everyone convinced that the future's a bitch
Ready to flinch at the clap of a hand
Like the sound of the bomb that's erasing the land
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Young hearts full of art and worry
You don't need to hurry--but you must continue
Do not let the message within you fall on deaf ears
Keep your hands moving 'till the truth appears
You will not be forgotten
Even if you grow rotten through, you still have a truth to speak to
And those who need you to be proof
That they too can still move and make something new
Young hearts full of art and worry
You don't need to hurry--but you must continue
Do not let the message within you fall on deaf ears
Keep your hands moving 'till the truth appears
This is only the start
Of something which never ends or gets less hard
Yet every part will be worth it in moments
When you look back and see how much you've grown into who you are
And the memories blot each page
Demarcations of the ways you've aged
Not all of which you wanted to see
But without each of which you could not be
And even as your heart breaks
Taking tallies of all of the mistakes
You can say, at the very least
You weren't afraid to try and make something
Young hearts full of art and worry
You don't need to hurry--but you must continue
Do not let the message within you fall on deaf ears
Keep your hands moving 'till the truth appears
Embrace the fears and scream them
If the tears are fake, then make me believe them
If the pain is real, inflict it on me
So I can see the world for what it should be
If you can't believe in yourself, then believe in me
Who believes in you, until the day that you can too
And if you need proof that someone needs you
Flood the world with your words 'till the signal cuts back through
And never stop or you will never know
'Cause you cannot grow if you throw in the towel and go home
You must hammer it down to the bone
"This is what I am, and I will be known!"
Young hearts full of art and worry
You don't need to hurry--but you must continue
Do not let the message within you fall on deaf ears
Keep your hands moving 'till the truth appears
You must hammer it down to the bone
"This is what I am, and I will be known!"
We bout to go harder than ever before
Action on every floor
Angles degrees flows, and pros
spittin' prose over pages
the stage is set, so place your bets
On whether we can keep this wet
Outta the bedroom, up from the bedrock
We'll rock the stock sounds outta ya head, flock to
My crib for the assist
If you wanna be a part of something bigger than this
Mothafucka it's lit!
What I spit pull about as much in a month
as what I was worth in Rotten
and gotten more responsibilities attached
to the fact that I got people relying on that
so now there's no lookin' back
I can't act like a goddamn child
feeling mild about my talents--gettin' wild, not givin' up
gotta flex nuts just to stay in the game
when shit gets complicated gotta tame the strange
Gotta stay deranged
And spread the flames to every house
Of every fuckin' challenger who tries to open they mouth
Light it right under they ass if they been sittin around
Call 'em out if they think they get cred for bein underground
if you ain't makin' a sound, then you ain't really a voice
if you shout loud enough then listening stops being a choice
get 'em poppin to that shit in ways they never expect
and I bet they'll say that we is the best
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3. |
Sadboi Counting Stars
04:03
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When you like 14
Prayin' that love is more than a dream
Can't even conceive of yourself as a real human being
'Cause that ain't the way you treated anyways
Every single day feels eternally long
At your weakest when they most expect you strong
All I wanted was to die and go away
Can't believe I made it long enough to see these brighter days
Now my worry's on a much bigger stage
My heart finally saved, but the world don't hesitate
And I know what's broken now, I know someone could be saved
So I know I have to fight, 'cause I know I have the strength
And that I can pave the way, maybe let you out
You can help me too, can't do it without
The support from my friends and my allies and family
Out with the bad vibes, in with the good guys
Sadbois gotta stick together
Nihilist but don't think you're clever
'Cause yeah, alone, it might get you killed
But we form a fiber stronger than steel
Raise a blade like the razor blade
You used to flay your flesh with and brave
The storms of war to follow your purpose
Cure the future of how they cursed us
Sadbois gotta stick together
Nihilist but don't think you're clever
'Cause yeah, alone, it might get you killed
But we form a fiber stronger than steel
Raise a blade like the razor blade
you used to flay your flesh with and brave
The storms of war to follow your purpose
Cure the future of how they cursed us
I know it's hard to go outside
To stand around and listen to lies
But you know you're gonna get online
And into the same shit every time
You know you can't live alone--that's the shit you been failing at all along
That's what got you to this song
Consciously or otherwise, this is a bond
Whether it's just the beat that reaches or it's my poems
I been writing hard near twenty damn years
Tryin'ta own these tears and define these fears
So I hope you hear what I'm talkin' 'bout
And if it can help you out, you know I'd be proud
Never was much a fan of crowds
But we've found a distance that works for now
And I hope you'll play it close to the chest
And find someone else who brings out your best
Sadbois gotta stick together
Nihilist but don't think you're clever
'Cause yeah, alone, it might get you killed
But we form a fiber stronger than steel
Raise a blade like the razor blade
you used to flay your flesh with and brave
The storms of war to follow your purpose
Cure the future of how they cursed us
Sadbois gotta stick together
Nihilist but don't think you're clever
'Cause yeah, alone, it might get you killed
But we form a fiber stronger than steel
Raise a blade like the razor blade
you used to flay your flesh with and brave
The storms of war to follow your purpose
Cure the future of how they cursed us
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Remember when I was a human being
Who did normal things
That weren't interesting
To anybody but me?
Now I'm living the meme
I don't know how to be me
--They call me: Digibro
Everybody that I know is famous compared to you
We all do youtube, and mix our juju
My whole crew is genius
Anybody who looks can see this
But I wonder of the cost I spent
What I've lost being so relentless
And maybe senseless in my own exile
I'm almost sure I had friends that could make me smile
That I ain't seen in quite a while
I must have touched someone once, and even got wild
But now I'm not sure how long it's been
Since the last time I thought of myself as a good friend
And ties are tough to mend
It's easier to buy a flight than it is to say goodbye
And to go on letting them think of me as the bad guy
I can't cry, cause it's all my fault
But I can't go back after I cleared that vault
I can't change that I've changed completely
Walked with my own feet
There is no real me
I've let my own art completely eat me
I see the East and it's burning read
Like the blood that seeps deep into my bed
And it's fine cause we'll all be dead soon
I'll ride this tide out until the red moon explodes
I know what the future holds
Either it's soon, or it's after I grow old
And I'm not sold on the thought that this soul
Is something I've totally got under my own control
Digibro, that's the life I chose
Ran away from home for the cash, fame, hoes
Staring out to the East, sad
As a commenter asks, "who the fuck is Conrad?"
"I don't know," I respond, stone cold
As the one tear rolls off my gay dead bones
I'm a grown ass man in some grown ass pain
Thinking how I'll never see my old self again
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5. |
Luv Sic Vizionz
02:20
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Vizionz at the top thrown' work to the bottom
All eyes on the rocks, miss the glock hand that shot 'em
Fall back into black clouds, smoke 'em if you got 'em
Won't hang with a wack crowd slangin' what I brought 'em
Yeah I brought 'em for you, tryin'a push you thru
But I ain't your fuckin' dad, I ain't settin' the rules
Come correct, fix yourself or you'll feel this boot
Tearing up your wack ass like a blade through fruit
I don't get up to no good 'cause there ain't no proof that
Bein' me won't advance, crack that ol' glass roof
Yeah I checked that pudding and then I ate that scoop
And it gave me more strength then I ever coulda knew
Now I shoot big guns up at even bigger people
Might end up shot back but that's just the way the beat go
I ain't scared, tho I'm cautious and paranoid as fuck
Guess I'm crazy, well that's just my luck, I still got them
Vizionz at the top thrown' work to the bottom
All eyes on the rocks, miss the glock hand that shot 'em
Fall back into black clouds, smoke 'em if you got 'em
Won't hang with a wack crowd slangin' what I brought 'em
Hold my wife and dream about the perfect life and what it means
Can I find meaning in anything other than stress relief?
Bigger visions lead to bigger work and ain't about that
Gotta put it in tho if I wanna hang up my hat
Sunny it may seem in the summer's lovely beams but the
Damn humidity got me sweatin' thru the seams and
I'm waiting for the heat just to die down a bit right
Before the snow hits six months in this bitch
Money money money money money money money
Never got enough, it's too little or too much, funny
How they tell you more money more problems
But you can't conceive of that shit at the bottom
Then you get up and realize it's all the same
Everybody's trapped inside the same old fleshy frame
Tryin' to give purpose to the endlessly mundane
Hoping anyone remember the name, ain't it strange? Seein'
Vizionz at the top thrown' work to the bottom
All eyes on the rocks, miss the glock hand that shot 'em
Fall back into black clouds, smoke 'em if you got 'em
Won't hang with a wack crowd slangin' what I brought 'em
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6. |
Ya'll Ain't Seen Kumomi
03:48
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Ya'll ain't seen nothin' 'bout that life
where I'm diggin' two inches snow off the hood
just so I can go get a cheeseburger down the road
just a simple man at home, blasting heavy drone when I'm prone
but I'm not alone, she be gettin' down
with that Merzbow, that's how I know how
much that ring on her finger's
Really worth too me
Way the hell more than I paid
Damn we good at gettin' laid
Half my people don't relate?
--yeah, that's typical
Life is just a spiral, but not outward, it's cylindrical
each of us is on a wave
hers and mine is just the same
pitched up on a thetawave
transmitted thru outer space
damn, we in the future, babe
first among the Newtype race
still, we're living in this place
grab a snowbrush, start to scrape
Ya'll ain't seen nothin' 'bout that life
Where I clogged the sink with the nasty bongwater
cause I had to clean one of these busted machines
cheap plastic mouthpiece
so I could put one more pinch into the bowl to shift
my conciousness up to a place where
I can feel feel creative even while remaining native
To the bedroom, staying sated
Often all inhebriated
Just because it's been so fucking cold for so long
that we can't step outside one more time
or we'll just die
stay inside and smoke nice
let's talk jive and fuck right
that good life, that feels right
Ya'll ain't seen nothin' 'bout that life
Where we sleep for 12 straight hours
Ya'll ain't seen nothin' 'bout that life
Where I'm eatin' out the pussy after showers
That's a funny little hook
Hope you'll give a second look
To these tracks that you pass right over in a glance
till a little shard of glass
breaks a little in your hand
and you cannot get it out
it's a symbol for your doubts
that you're always trying to face
enblemized within my speech
in so many different ways
that within your mind it stays
taunting you around for days
'till you just can't look away
and you give a few more plays
I'll forgive your crooked ways
I'm a church and you gon' pay
Here's my patreon page
Show me what it's worth to you to have these words inside your brain
Do you think I've gone insane?
Worried I'll jump off the train?
If I pull a masterpiece will I be burning off the fame?
Ya'll ain't anticipating
That I've been incubating
I've always been on schedule for the schemes initiating
it's only been the shape and form that nobody predicts
success was in the cards before the child was six
bitch I was built for this
I don't have much of a choice, do I?
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I'm not meant to live this life alone
With this microphone, showing people when I'm prone
Will you take me home?
No I don't care where you're from.
I will come
I have to come and make you cum
You're the one
When I saw you I hoped you were real
Then you were and I hoped you were gonna help me feel
Then you did, and I knew that there was no turning back
Nothing else was ever gonna make me feel like that
Already more time has passed happy than any guessed
And it still feels like it's starting, all this happiness
What will it be like to live together years from now?
I know how, I think, and I want what I see and I think
You being with me is gonna be the greatest thing that's
Ever come to you or me, but only time can truly see
You're the one
You're the one
Today I nearly crashed my car, and you just didn't blink an eye
Paradise, we're both blinded by this manic high
You and I are so in each-other we might die
Which is fine, cause we'd never make it long alive
Without the other soon behind, that's the kind of bind
We've put ourselves in this time, that we just couldn't survive
Without one-another's eyes to look into our eyes
We've been synchronized, like two pieces of technology
Or every single ant inside the hivemind of a colony
A melding so intense it generates epochs of energy
Or any of the best sex ever had through all of history
Your body melting into me and bringing me to heavenly
elation is the main station of operation given to me
So please baby, embrace me in your bosom as I sing
I want you with me always and there's nothing else I need
You're the one
You're the one
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8. |
Perfect Shallow Circle
02:58
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I'm only ankles deep
I can't impress me
I only see beauty in terms of what is sexy
I'm not a good guy
I don't like anyone
But if someone says hon I wanna fuck I'm all but done
Got about as much charm as self-harm
--I'm about as warm as a corporate email
Got no female friends and I think it's probly my fault
Rough like asphalt, tough with words and curses
Curt to a fault and I skirt the issues
Satisfied to squirt through tissues
Plus I talk about my dick like it's everybody's business
Come pay witness
Physical fitness is I lift a bit but I don't do shit besides
--ride is nice but I'm only out at night
To procure burger and fries
And I eat like a garbage shute
I'm far from cute
Can't be much of a brute but
My sleezy needs got me up all night nothin' but redtube
I'm only ankles deep
I can't impress me
I only see beauty in terms of what is sexy
I'm not a good guy
I don't like anyone
But if someone says hon I wanna fuck I'm all but done
Never gonna feel attractive, never gonna be too active
Only got a few more years til' I'm over that hill and expectations go backwards
I'm a lazy bastard
Smokin' up a storm of tobacco
Like a little rascal
Livin' in the big fiasco
Tryin' not to be so hassled
Maybe less a total asshole
But I don't see myself from the outside
And don't trust what I do not see
If a ball of sleaze with some real bad teeth isn't what you all perceive
Then I'm glad for that--but I'm still fat
And I still don't like dogs or cats
And I'm still a self-important fuck with a knack
For embracing that
I'm only ankles deep
I can't impress me
I only see beauty in terms of what is sexy
I'm not a good guy
I don't like anyone
But if someone says hon I wanna fuck I'm all but done
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7.4 Tsurugi no Mai
03:24
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7.4 billion strong
7.4 billion weak
Will you surf or sink?
When tsunami bombs in, you'll be in a tailspin
Live afraid or win, give it up or think
Who can you blame for broken brains?
No one is sane the way that you think
The strange may blink a lot but not
From from rotten ways, they just displaced
Another race? If them then all of us
Truth be told everybody is anonymous
Identity was promised to us but it is fugazi
Just a grammar nazi's semantic debate
About the center of the sameness
The fracture in the blameless
Humans are a prism through which light is passing through
Reflecting a rainbow casting seven billion hues
Ever shifting, I was dark slate blue, then red
Grey, pink and purple, blacker every year still
Wake is white instead
Not ready to be dead no more because I faced that failure
Came back strong enough to bench your trailer
Giving back as much as whatever I took
Then taking back half 'cause my ass still shook
'cause you gave that look, and that's unforgiven
gimme one good reason I should be so driven
to anything but suicide, homicide, genocide
why should I want anybody still alive?
7.4 billion strong
7.4 billion weak
Will you surf or sink?
When tsunami bombs in, you'll be in a tailspin
Live afraid or win, give it up or think
Baby's first existential crisis
Got 'em feelin' like his listless life is timeless
Abstracted, give 'em physical reminders
Blood inside the mouth after I rock you with the blinder
Blind wish sight, get it, shit gets blase
Now you're in societay, grab a bat and join the fray
Visionary day-to-day, all I see is bullshit
Heat it up or cool it, still gon' taste the stool, lick
Wounds with the clique, they say you sicknasty
Classy niggas know that there ain't shit that's everlasting
That could mean terror and pain and the blasting stops
But before I drop? That ain't worth no laughing
Not even a prayer to the faithful
Never gonna be acknowledged by the ungrateful
Can't even be thankful for the progress
Of the smart ones gettin' all they heart off they chest
No, entitled kids are gonna stay depressed
And the myth of truth is gonna stay repressed
You can't do your best 'cause the next guy can't
Superman's the demon in the mind of Kents, standing
7.4 billion strong
7.4 billion weak
Will you surf or sink?
When tsunami bombs in, you'll be in a tailspin
Live afraid or win, give it up or think
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Nujabes be blessin' me with all the best beats
at my feets, like hey peeps, bring yo streets and yo mindpiece
let 'em know the stories that you're poring over real deep
in the recesses where excessive sweatin' ain't over beef
it's about the real me, whether there's a real me
anything but what I project over who directs me
preferences apparent but now I'm scared to annoy peeps
over things I see as regressive tendencies I preach
mind bleach, please, 'fore I roll back
into the angry little edgelord I'd wanna troll, slack
jawed in the mirror 'cause emotions won't ever show, black
hearted from the start, they said it and I felt the blowback
like I shot a big gun, fired straight up at the sun
pounded me into the Earth, now I'm just a lil' stub
torso in the dirt writing on papers around me
will they simply leave me here or will the try to drown me?
beggin' 'em at times to run me over with a tractor
when you're empty at the core you just know how to be an actor
what's the role? can I play it? can't I just go get faded?
why does living on this earth gotta be so damn complicated?
I remember as a kid, man I hated my life
now I'm twenty-seven, all I feel is love for my wife
nothin' else, it's all numb, hate myself, feel so dumb
she gets sad, give her cum, play some games, chew some gum
back to work, nose to the grindstonne
how else am I supposed to afford a nice home?
how else am I supposed to pay for fun shit to do?
realize the visions that to you all are invisible?
but I barely care enough, barely wanna live long
barely wanna do much but get my dick sucked and make songs
got power to maybe generationally change shit
still, see oncoming cars and tempted to make that lane switch
Please don't tell me this is paradise
I've been dreaming something much more nice
If this is all there is then why fight?
Please don't say your endgame is my life
It's not right
Caveat Emptor to all who admire me
I know I'd fire me if I had ever hired me
And I mean by firing squad, I'm gayer than god
And deserve to be deader than a dorknob
Fat slob, but I quit smokin'
So I won't be chokin' on anything other than dick for a while
Never been in style
Stayed actin' like somethin' of a prick, and it's riled up
Some punks who act like I stabbed someone
Just cause I gave a 1 to their favorite show
Do you even know what is an opinion?
Objectivity doesn't exist, I told you a million times
There is no rule to rhyme, no design
Only what you decide that you like at this time
And I hate myself
So don't emulate me unless your better with self-help
Return from the rubble a god, damn
Menace to society runnin' thru the pockets of your family
Nineteen, out of body rockin' out to Hatsune, Miku
Drinking Mountain Dew and getting banned for loli porn on 4chan
No stans, nobody pans out but the devout disturbed
Yeah, that's my turf, I'd maybe defer to Dick
Or Jess, but I've paid my dues to have feed to peck
In order I'm our'devours 'cause I'm heard
But full course I don't serve 'cause
I still ain't matured past
Two blunts in one swerve
My shared universe has a fuckin' house in the 'burbs
And a leased X1 that I took ROC to Atlanta
Bitch I'm gigantic
Forbes certified, I'd like some reviews, Santa!
Everything is food for me, I'll chew through you to help me think
I blink and new ideas are formed too far beyond what I perform
Nor anything considered norm, more formless than what I've beholden
Olden gods give nods to waves I send through space and time to
Make them hear my rhymes and give their grace
To shit all over their work in haste
Debased myself like every day 'cause everyone already hated me
From day one so it's more fun to role dice with the culture
Yes I'm a vulture, bitch, I gobbled your father's pancreas
My absolute territory is universe nine
A harmonized hivemind homesteading time
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Nelson Mandala died way back in '95
Wait, it's 2005?
Or is he still alive?
How did Tupac survive
Being gunned by Shug Night?
Assange will answer when Ye hears Pam's battlecry
Is she still Borat's wife?
Bruno's score is a sign
If you are woke know you still shouldn't trust the whites
Not even me
How much of it can you even believe?
Controversy did you slightly agree?
Fuck you then, too
Study the moral and the criminal
Fiction is law
God still a part of National Anthem
Fuck is you from?
I don't trust no one who profit
From ignorance; turns out it's something that
Everyone does for kicks
I'm such an idiot
Learned how to talk to your group
So that we could be cool
And you turned the moment that it challenged you to
Explain how you knew such a crass criminal
If you ain't got me then I won't protect you
Don't listen? Got no more advice for you
Let the waves usher you out to your doom
Weep for you never, watch you die alone
ZEUS AS A GOOSE AND JESUS
RAPING AWAY YOUR MAIN TRUTH
HOW MANY FALLS WILL IT TAKE YOU
BEFORE A THOUGHT THAT COULD WAKE YOU?
HANG TO THE LEFT AND CLOSE YOUR EYES
STIFLE THE SIRENS AND FLASHING LIGHTS
GRAMMATON IN YOUR HEART ALL ALONG
THOUGHT YOU KNEW THAT, WHY'D IT TAKE YOU SO LONG?
32 stories over average avenue
What a view, offerin' no vestibule to vegetables
Sort 'em through--here's how
politik than get out
Cobain for the e-clout
that won't fly in my house
I have watched this city burn
seen the turn to internment
seen some cold shit
no atonement
Watched a whole mint
Inflate and go limp
Impotent wimps let
The planet fuckin' go to shit
Protecting their right to be worthless
With all of their might is their purpose
Cattle for corrupted socio-elites in silicon valley
To be hearded by wolves dressed like sheep
R.I.P. to the need for exception
Caress your erection for somebody else's perfection
Your lexicon you bought from someone
Now you come from your section to spread your infection
I taught you a lesson and then you forgot
Said you had work, you were getting a nut
Wandered away got a job and you're done
Nobody left now it just isn't fun
No one to overcome
Just me and my cache and the burning world
My stash in my stache and my twerkin' girl
A glance thru the glass and I shriek and twirl
Then emphatically dance to the cries that swirl
And swirl and swirl
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12. |
Immortal Death Latitude
03:53
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When I consider that I exist on this Earth
Subsist with such mirth
Blissed out and purposed
I feel an insistence
To close the distance
I've kept from a sense
Of responsibility
This way that I see
Surroundings as utility
Knowing full well
That I have the ability
To see your hell
And handle with fragility
I could dispell
The idea of the enemy
Otherness--
The global forgetfulness of onness
The AT fields that we choose to shield
Our hearts with and weild
Our fears as weapons--
Protection from intervention
Inventions perpetuating our perceptions
That we are seperate in our selection
That we our sectioned
Our predilection
For preservation
With complications
Of all our nations
Communications
Falling flat
Cause we can't understand that
We will always be chewing the same fat
We will sustain and maintain that
Till the day that we may ascertain fact
If there is such a thing in the void's hat
If there is sense in the way anything acts
And I stand with my doubts still about that
Believe you me I can see the trees breathing
I am attuned to the kids screaming
I understand what you're scheming
And I am not even close to disagreeing
I am lost--
It doesn't help to understand the cost
It's the profit I don't get
I don't know where the gold sits
I can't predict the market
I can't do a cost-benefit
When I'm unfit to interpret the latter
To grasp at the ladder
That leads to the benefactor
Supreme actor
Wherever you are
I don't believe that the answer is just among the stars
I don't belive any of us ever make it that far
One day everything will end, and then it will all restart
I would only like to be here for as long as we are
Let me be there when the lights shut off
When the space shutters one last cough
By then I'll be ready to accept what is not
Unless my will is real, and I crush nihil
And my soul can really carry on
But I won't hold my breath, or barrell headlong for death
I will fight the stress that bites at my neck
With vain hope the next decade is the test
To see who will rest inside nature's breast
And the future's nest; what I'm so desperate
To attest to giving my best to
I cannot rest till I've made my point
And felt the joy of all I know is there
I'm only scared of having to miss out
I'm only scared because I have this doubt
I'm only scared that I just might be wrong
I'm only scared that I may not be strong
I'm only scared that I could die too soon
I'm only scared that I will cry right through
The final scene, and that I will be moved
I just can't deal, I just can't deal
Oh God let me be real
If the time is soon then I would like to feel
I would love to save the world, but I know everything dies
We know the cycle never ends, but we continue to try
If I miss the singularity within my life, I'm fucked
Gettin' cucked by the universe
What if I pull a Sing About Me and get shot by the end of the verse?
The real curse is not knowing
Yet feeling the need for a goal towards which to continue growing
and never slowing even when it hurts
I'm reimbursed for my effort with a fat coin purse
but the years I've burned past I can't reverse
all the hoops I've jumped through to avoid the hearse
make the thought that I'm wasting my time so much worse
and what's worse than that?
knowing that I'm dying even as I rap
I get immersed to avoid the facts
mortality: I just can't admit to that
cause what's worse than that?
knowing that I'm dying even as I rap
I get immersed to avoid the facts
mortality: I just can't admit to that
cause what could be worse than that?
the final boss of our lives is death itself
fighting temporary threats only barely helps
if we can't pull the ghost from the shell, we won't survive
and we've only got so much time
I put my lime in my coconut so I can chill
pretending this ain't real, just so I can deal
if the world ends with me, then at least I made it
I'll watch the sky burn from the backyard, faded
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A Toast From Yokosuka
03:10
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I remember back when I was just a kid
Struggled to make connections, yet somehow I always did
Manage to have one friend, every house I lived in
But then we would move away, never hear from them again
Every one meant the world to me
But I was so used to leaving, I would never think to reach
Out to see how they turned out, clear out any doubt
That they didn't even stop to think of me now
And old habits they be hard to break
Even after a decade living in the same place
I've been letting others fade away, and I can't say
I've done my part to make it happen any other way
Even people that I know online
Some I start to wonder if they're even still alive
I'm twenty-five now, and I've got a lot ahead
So to everyone I've ever loved, alive or dead:
I miss you
Everything is always bound to fade
The steady march of time it takes us all away
I'm ready to embrace what I know is my fate
I promise everyone I won't forget your face
I been displaced enough times to know my brain tries
To move you to the back of my mind, for the time being
And I'd be blind if said I wasn't seeing
How moving has become my very mode of thinking
I've been in one space long enough to perfect it
Been at one pace too long to accept it
Now I gotta run towards the evening sun
And find fun in new places I never expected
If I can't stay with anyone, I'll go to everyone
Live out the fleeting greetings and have fun
Cherish each and every meeting, but move on
Always to the next scene, to sing the next song
It may seem wrong to some, but it's how I work
Until the day I may change and find a new purpose
Define a new compass to follow in life
But until then, I'll keep to what I feel is right
I hope we meet again before you pass
That the memories of times we spent together will last
Every fleeting vision trapped in my distant past
Is what guides the mast of this ship you passed
In the night
Put up one light
I'll raise one too
A toast to you
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