Jesus Christ, I'm too drunk to even read this back...
This is a song I wrote early into 2014 and released on bandcamp with a series of a capella tracks called Drape On Me Your Veil of Cynicism (Shield Me From This Pain).
trialofthegoldenwitch.bandcamp.com/album/d…is-pain The original release was about various internet dramas that I was going through at the time, and every time I find myself in another similar situation, I tend to revisit those songs. This one in particular (originally called Pain.) always springs to mind.
The origin of the song is from getting into fights with people with a sort of victim complex--people who think that because their situation is so much "worse" than everyone else's, they need to be treated differently. As someone who's spent a large part of my life feeling suicidal and not understanding my place in the world, I can't help but be upset when someone acts like because of who I am, I can't empathize with them. I'm willing to acknowledge a huge amount of luck and privilege in my life, but this whole idea that because of who I am, I somehow can't feel the same type or depth of pain that others can, legitimately offends me.
I changed the last line to "fuck off." The original version was a lot more somber sounding, as I felt more like maybe I was really in the wrong; but over time. I've grown more angry and vindictive, feeling like the way that people treat the concept of feeling a pain that others can't relate to really is offensive and aggravating.
Okay time to be drunk elsewhere..