When I consider that I exist on this Earth
Subsist with such mirth
Blissed out and purposed
I feel an insistence
To close the distance
I've kept from a sense
Of responsibility
This way that I see
Surroundings as utility
Knowing full well
That I have the ability
To see your hell
And handle with fragility
I could dispell
The idea of the enemy

Otherness--
The global forgetfulness of onness
The AT fields that we choose to shield
Our hearts with and weild
Our fears as weapons--
Protection from intervention
Inventions perpetuating our perceptions
That we are seperate in our selection
That we our sectioned
Our predilection
For preservation
With complications
Of all our nations
Communications
Falling flat
Cause we can't understand that
We will always be chewing the same fat
We will sustain and maintain that
Till the day that we may ascertain fact
If there is such a thing in the void's hat
If there is sense in the way anything acts
And I stand with my doubts still about that

Believe you me I can see the trees breathing
I am attuned to the kids screaming
I understand what you're scheming
And I am not even close to disagreeing
I am lost--
It doesn't help to understand the cost
It's the profit I don't get
I don't know where the gold sits
I can't predict the market
I can't do a cost-benefit
When I'm unfit to interpret the latter
To grasp at the ladder
That leads to the benefactor
Supreme actor
Wherever you are
I don't believe that the answer is just among the stars
I don't belive any of us ever make it that far

One day everything will end, and then it will all restart
I would only like to be here for as long as we are
Let me be there when the lights shut off
When the space shutters one last cough
By then I'll be ready to accept what is not
Unless my will is real, and I crush nihil
And my soul can really carry on
But I won't hold my breath, or barrell headlong for death
I will fight the stress that bites at my neck
With vain hope the next decade is the test
To see who will rest inside nature's breast
And the future's nest; what I'm so desperate
To attest to giving my best to
I cannot rest till I've made my point
And felt the joy of all I know is there
I'm only scared of having to miss out
I'm only scared because I have this doubt
I'm only scared that I just might be wrong
I'm only scared that I may not be strong
I'm only scared that I could die too soon
I'm only scared that I will cry right through
The final scene, and that I will be moved
I just can't deal, I just can't deal

Oh God let me be real
If the time is soon then I would like to feel

I would love to save the world, but I know everything dies
We know the cycle never ends, but we continue to try
If I miss the singularity within my life, I'm fucked
Gettin' cucked by the universe
What if I pull a Sing About Me and get shot by the end of the verse?
The real curse is not knowing
Yet feeling the need for a goal towards which to continue growing
and never slowing even when it hurts
I'm reimbursed for my effort with a fat coin purse
but the years I've burned past I can't reverse
all the hoops I've jumped through to avoid the hearse
make the thought that I'm wasting my time so much worse
and what's worse than that?
knowing that I'm dying even as I rap
I get immersed to avoid the facts
mortality: I just can't admit to that
cause what's worse than that?
knowing that I'm dying even as I rap
I get immersed to avoid the facts
mortality: I just can't admit to that
cause what could be worse than that?


the final boss of our lives is death itself
fighting temporary threats only barely helps
if we can't pull the ghost from the shell, we won't survive
and we've only got so much time
I put my lime in my coconut so I can chill
pretending this ain't real, just so I can deal
if the world ends with me, then at least I made it
I'll watch the sky burn from the backyard, faded